Pandora's Casket

Simply Simms

I have been so pooped that I decided to work part of the morning then take the remainder of the day off. Felt pretty good until all of a sudden I did not have one thing that I wanted to do. You know how you have tons of things that you should do, or could do but what happens to those things that you can just do for the fun of it?

Instead of worrying about it and of course bugging the kids I re-installed the Simms 2. So for the past few hours I have spent a leisurely day playing that game. I love to design the houses and then decorate it. After that I have to admit that I tend to get ADD of Simms. haha

One thing with this game you do not need any Apidexin that is for sure you can get lost in this game for hours. Until it hits you it is time for bed and you still have things to get done!

Nice weekend though so now I ma ready to tackle those oil orders and think about re-arranging the work room!

To Each His Own

At first I was going to write a posting that was not going to be very nice. Steaming from indignation and anger I was about to just simple let it all out. Which maybe in a way would have been a good release, well, at the time maybe. But then after a couple of hours or so I changed my mind on doing that.

It is funny how people perceive things. Whether they are real, imagined or blown up to be more than what they were at the time. Making their selves feel better about the person they are in the present blaming everything wrong with them on others. Not stepping up taking the personal responsibility for their inner failings, emotional instability and insecurities. Blaming all these things on what may or may not have happened in the past.

There are things in everyone's past that they have done that I am sure that they are not proud of yet this does not give someone, anyone for that matter the right to exploit these things in the wrong light adding more to them than maybe there was. I guess it makes a story better, just like in the movies, to embellish and add more drama than reality really was. Making themselves out to be the hero of the story is always a good way in which to gain sympathy or something that I will never understand.

Now, I love a good story, truly I do. Yet not one that is based on partial truths. Amazed at how people are blind only seeing what it is that they wish to see. And finally being so consumed in the lies and stories that they have come up with that they actually believe what it is they have made up. No matter if anyone else says it is true they remain adamant that it is.

I feel sympathy and even pity for those that do this type of thing. For they are lonely, miserable people in their own rights no matter how successful they may become.

I know that in my past there are things that I did that now I find unbelievable and do not even know that person from a certain period of life. I drank like a fish, dated a lot and I mean a lot and so on. Am I ashamed of it? Yes and No. My actions at the time were uncontrollable and very inappropriate yet without going through all that it formulated the person that I am now and have been over the years. Oh that person was there just not totally there.

BUT to make false claims of bad parenting? I have to say this FUCK YOU that is untrue. Maybe during that time I was not perfect but the other is an out and out lie. I am so tired of hearing the same tired story.
It is funny how 5 out of 6 do not feel this way. And there is one that was there and remembers.

Not one time did I ever say that none of the siblings should talk to one of the other siblings. Just the opposite. Funny how I get blamed for that. Something that I had nothing to do with.

I wish that my mother was a good mom. When I was younger I think that she was an okay mother. I do remember that I felt loved as a child. As I grew up and she kept having more kids and more issues with men and drinking she became a really bad mother. At times it was as if I was her parent along with being the parent to my brothers and sisters. It is because of her that I have no relationships with my sisters or brothers. She has broken any bond that we have tried to form. I really have no example of how to be a mother I just hope that I make my son feel loved and that he matters every single day or his life. IT hurts more then words can say on the void that I feel when I think about how my mother was and how horrible she turned out, but if it were not for my grandmother then I am not sure where I would be today! So while I had a crappy mother I did have and still do have the most amazing grandmother!!Sealed

Now, I could literally pick this apart. Yet what would be the point. As in reality it matters very little. It matters that there is pain that apparently will not ever be resolved. But the more you make yourself believe something you are stuck in a stagnant pool of darkness.

If it makes people feel better to play the blame game for their feelings of inadequacies then feel free to place it all on me. I don't mind at all. I can accept what I did wrong more than some people can. If that makes me a crappy mother, fine. I have 5 children that would tell you differently.

Tight Schedule Week

Boy, this week is going to be one of those weeks that I have to really stick to a schedule. Time is running out for many things this week so it will all have to be jumbled up.

One thing that I have to do is to call my insurance company and talk about my insurance to make sure that it is the best term life insurance rates possible. I am thinking that they are not. Guess they will have to prove it to me. haha

After that is a few errands, especially on Monday. Then phone calls, orders completed, you name it and I have to get it all done to eleviate of some of the stress that I feel right now. The graduation this next Sunday and our lovely house guest is really putting extra pressure on me and I don't need or want it.

So starting tomorrow I am hoping that I get everything taken care of so I can breathe

Sucky Sunday

Today was one of those Sundays that you just have to wonder about.

With the great room being in construction phase it has been a nightmare down there. I must admit though the boys have done a smashing job (more ways than one) on re-doing the Great room ceiling. It is really starting to look nice!

Jamie took the arch down and now it is back to the original entrance as it was when built. Now we can look into the french doors I want to put there. Those and the windows at the top. BB gave that idea. Some really nice etched glass would be perfect.

Everything is in complete disarray. Hate it so much. The next smaller project will be putting in the new bathroom faucets for the sink. That will nearly complete the bathroom.

Sunday was a race against the clock with so many things that I am still racing and just want to go to bed.

Summer Diets

Have you ever noticed how many people towards summer start the new diets wanting to drop the winter coats that they have gained to look good in a bathing suit?

Expecting to shed 20, 30 or even 40 pounds within a month on any diet that proclims to help. Some will go so far as to start taking some of the diet pills that they see. Not taking the time in order to see if they are good for them or even work.

I sent a friend to a site that will actually tell you which are the best diet pills to take with a good diet and exercise program. This site takes the guess work out of picking blindly on the Walmart shelves. Not to mention they even tell you the best value for these same dietary pills so you will get a good idea on what you are in for.

Before you start any diet do it responsibly and do your homework of the things that you are putting in your body before you actually do.

Spiritual Pursuits

I was talking ot one of my close friends, Rene, and told him that I had a few new things that I wanted to do this evening. No, it is not a new hex but boy there are a couple of people that deserve some bad karma to go in their direction. Instead I am hoping that the fat burners that they take do not work and they blow up to the size of a house

Anyway I regress, telling him about this and that of what I wanted to do we got a big kick out of my horoscope that was sent to me today. It was so funny that it came in today as we were chatting about certain things.

Dreamy Neptune begins its five-month retrograde phase today, indicating a time when we can intensify our spiritual pursuits. But Neptune's change of direction is much more subtle than Mercury's, which began on May 7 and ends tomorrow. Review period is over; it's time to take what we learned and put it into motion. Today's outgoing Leo Moon squares logical Mercury, creating stress because we know what we should be doing, even if we don't want to do it.

I guess it must be a 'sign'.

Not Working Is Work

I decided to take the day off. What ever possessed me I have no idea but it sounded good at the time. I worked in the morning getting the oils, kits and other orders ready to go out and a few other things when I came up with the brainiac idea of taking the entire day and evening off.

Yes, I am to pooped to pop. As I began the day of not working I realized something that I think I already knew. I get so bored not working that finding something to do is more work than if I am working.

We went out to eat lunch in Bluffton which was good and a lot of fun with the kids. Came home took a very short but needed nap until the cell phone kept ringing and ringing so decided I might as well forget the extra sleep. After that I tried to fin something to do. But what?

Finding really nothing to do that kept my interest for more than 15 minutes at a time I decided to clean my room. It needs to be straightened after the long week but have I started? Nope. I picked up one thing and looked at an order sitting there thinking I should do that and a couple of other things. haha

I told my daughter, Sabs that if I am not working I feel lost. I am a full blown, no life workaholic What I do need in order to keep up the hours that I have been keeping are nutritional health supplements for the times that I do not eat properly.

Last nights dinner was 4 chocolate chip cookies and a half a glass of water. Yumm-O!

What am going to do this evening? I have plans of not working but I see that as a no go there!

Readings & More

Over the past two days I have had more readings asked for than I normally care to do. I do not mind it just drains my already low energy well is all. But I do them.

I have three customers that I have been doing them for steadily for three years now and a few new clients now. All wanted readings before the weekend. Sweet Mother of Sally why?

Questions mainly on, you guessed it, love. Does he/she love me? Instead of asking me why not ask them? Cut to the point and say HEY, do you feel a certain way about me? Is that so very hard to do?

My clients are wonderful, believe me when I say that but this last slew just got to me. Of course, I did turn one person away as the reading was just a little creepy that they wanted. Won't even go there. Meet all kinds I must say.

There are times though I have wanted to tell them to go back the rv that they drove in on and leave me alone. As the answers they seek are right there in front of them. Would I say it? No. Maybe someday I will!

Signs of Petals

You know people in my circle just makes me laugh. No, more of a snicker of their being so 'occultish'. Each and everything that happens has something to do with something when in plain fact it is nothing.

I get the reports of how a flower petal fell at their feet and this must mean that the Goddess is leading them somewhere. Could it have been that you were standing in your flower garden, the wind came up and the petal fell in a normal way as they do? Why oh why does every thing have to be made into signs, leadings you name it?

While these nutcases, I say this with much love, are so busy looking at these insignificant nothings they are missing the big sign.

I enjoy revelations from my groups. Some have been in the making for many months to even years yet when it comes back to the things that are just stupid, why bother to tell me?

Or is it that since I do not practice on the same path as most of them I see it as so mundane, something that they should have seen or felt so long ago that I am turning my nose down at them? No, that is not it at all. It is the plain and simple fact that I do not find petal droppings astounding.

Time and time again I have seen these same people tell of things that has happened, I know full well this is a sign but they ignore it. Hmm, are you that ignorant? Or is it that you need to go back to the 101 course of years gone by?

Please do not think that I do not wish to hear these things as I do. It makes me laugh at the blindness that you have. Let the things that are mundane go and seek those higher signs of meaning. Or how about this, ask for a sign to be sent. Do you remember how to do this?

I am afraid though if I hear one more of those petal stories this weekend I am packing my Samsonite luggage and heading for the hills.

Spluging Coming Up

Next month I have decided that I am going to splurge on a couple of new pieces of office furniture that is really needed.

One of the first things that I am getting is a lap top desk. When I am working downstairs I hate having it on the table or on my lap. Plus when I have that super cool cooling fan on it has to be on the table. Fans cutting into my legs is just not my idea of fun times. I love that fan with the three neo blue lights. haha

The other item that I am going to get is a new shelf unit for the work room. With all the oils and mixtures I have ran out of room in there and boy oh boy I get tired of moving things around in there.

Only a couple more weeks until June so I am really excited. Doesn't take much to get me excited I guess

Memorial Weekend Blast

Since it was the holiday weekend we all decided to take some time off working and have a little well deserved fun.

Planning the bowling event was a couple of weeks ago so when Saturday finally rolled around everyone was pretty excited. We made arrangements to go in the afternoon after Jamie got home from his volunteer work at the local animal shelter. Which gave me ample time to look into online term life insurance quotes and also Trevor's auto insurance for his truck.

With family in tow the bowling fun began!

Finding the perfect ball is part of the fun! There is only part of the family hunting for their balls. In the way background is BB ad Jamie waiting patiently for all to return!

As you can see Colt found his ball and was very happy!

Everyone had a good laugh at Shay as she started out strong and finished well, let's just say she finished

After over two and a half hours of pizza, soda and bowling fun it was time to go. What a great day it was!

Colton's First Art Show

This was Colton's first year in art, and I must admit it was a struggle with him. He did not like the class at all. He said that he did not have any interest in making anything and when he did it turned out wrong.

Personally I liked what he made and thought that it turned out good. This might be his last year in art so he had to go to the art show!

Of course, he could not take a serious picture while standing next to his art! But at least I was able to get a picture!

My favorite is the green vase. It has so much detail on the individual pieces it was amazing. I thought this was unique in its style. His sisters loved it as well!

I am hoping that he changes his mind and continues with art next year but if not it's OK!

Trevor's Last Art Show

Last week started the official end of the year events that we are attending for the boys at their high school. With two weeks or less remaining of the school year there is always something that either needs to be done or something to go to.

With this being Trevor's last year the events are crazy. He wanted to go to this year's Art show being it is his last. He won a ribbon for one of his pots that he made so he was pretty happy.
(For a bigger view just click on the pictures)

It came out really pretty, no wonder he won something!

This is Trevor standing near one of his items he made. Like pulling teeth to get him to stand still long enough to take the picture.

These were two of my favorites that he made.

Right now we are looking into finding him a wheel so he can continue with his pottery making. He loves this hobby so might as well continue!

Mystical Conspiracy

Ever so often those people that I do associate with go on what I like to call a 'mystical bender'. They get all caught up in the comings and goings of negative energies trying to lay a finger on who sent it and why was it sent. The mystical conspiracy thus begins.

Dark, brooding discussions begin to take place. Cloaked by the veil of secrecy, so as nobody knows what they are saying. Ritualistically throwing up shields of protection against the unknown attacker(s). They are now prepared or are they?

Whenever something is going on that is filling the air with negative energy I will get an email or phone call asking if one of my dear, meek, mild associates have decided to send anything their way. Or if I have heard about any other of the groups are up to something. Usually, if they are I will tell the truth and say why they have decided that another group or person should suffer a little harsh energy thrown at them. Be it right or wrong is not for me to say unless it falls upon the counsel to try to stop it for the sake of sanity, OK peace within is really the reason but for me personally it is sanity. My brethren is always looked at first. You know I have never understood that. haha

Now yet another conspiracy is upon us. Actually there is two but who is really counting at this point? Those fingers that are pointing though should really not waste energies on who they think it is or is not. Focusing energy thinking about those they think is involved just might wake the beasts and they will feel this energy and start to seek you out and there we go-BAM from Mystical Conspiracy to Mystical War. (rolling eyes)

Come on guys and gals we have had peace now for four months we can go throughout the summer can't we? The most honored of warrior camps have laid the swords on the tables, crossed for peace. Let it remain that way.

As I have said and everyone else knows, energy attracts energy. Good or bad makes no difference.

Maybe it is just that I am not in the mood to play with the reindeer this time. I gave my take on both of the situations. They are both separate yet today's remarks brought this post to light. Might as well let ya'll know that both conspiracy's are being looked at as just an occurrence of bad energy levels within. Not from outside influences. Cases closed. Move on.....

Just in case though, I am setting out Magmar and Torso to keep the ever watchful eye out

Gossip Gossip Gossip

Everyone just loves to talk about things that are really none of their business. You know those people that will sit and tell everything they know about some person that is not in the room. Who cares? I am are you seriously going to go around talking about a person to people that do not know them? Oh, that is right you are.

I received an email this afternoon from one of my friends telling me about person A. I barely know this person so I barely listened. How do I know if it is true, and even if it is, do I care? Nope. So I sat and read about what, how and when person A did all these terrible things for no reason at all. Isn't that always the case? The person telling the story is always innocent and pure not deserving this back stabbing event to happen. Yet they are doing the same thing, back stabbing. Oh well, reading the nonsense I sat and laughed. Closed out and let it go. An hour or so passes and another friend writes, and guess what? Now this person is talking about not only person A but person B as well. haha

It started as someone said something about a diet and it moved from that to they were taking diet pill and was addicted. What was my opinion I was asked?

Since not really knowing them I don't care if they are hooked on heroine to tell you the truth. What would you like me to say? I don't know them I won't give any opinion. Most of the time these gossip emails will go away moving on to other topics that are more pleasing for me to read. I just wish my friends would get it through their heads that I don't want to hear what person a is doing to person b and their dog as well. Leave me out of it.

It is funny to read or hear I have to admit that much. I laugh and keep quiet. I can only imagine what they say about me. haha